(this is all I want)........ "Happiness is a blissful feeling where each of our desires are met at the time we wish for them to happen. Where our pain is absent and our heart has no link missing. Where are feelings are elated and our hate is never belated."

First and foremost.....about me

†Today I feel different from yesterday....Cause I am constantly changing(thank god)...I want to be someones priority, I don't feel like I've EVER been someone's priority, I love little things in life way more than I love extravagent things...like taking a ridiculously hot shower and just laying on my couch, reading vogue, hanging out with my parents,just looking at the one I love and smiling(how fuckin corny am I?), moments like that mean everything to me. Trust is earned and not given and I make people jump through fuckin hoops to earn my trust. I am such a disaster but really so simple..I am a lot of bad things but more of great things. I am not looking for a boyfriend but a soulmate or maybe I am not even looking anymore,,I'm waiting for him to find me. I don't "hang out in clubs" I just take pictures when I go out, I don't really think you want to see me do normal things like grocery shop, or pump gas.. I am bitter, jaded, and resentful but I am full of love, and optimistic. Not until very recently did I discover that I should be my number one priority..and no one, no one in this world is worth YOUR piece of mind or a wasted day. I am sarcastic 100 percent of the time...I say asshole at least 100 times a day.Patience is a virtue and I'm really trying to learn it.I'm half of what you see and none of what you expect. I spell wierd wrong but I like my way better. Everyone thinks I'm like really angry but I probably laugh more than anyone you know!I love screamo and rock music so much but I secretly listen to 50 cent he's my boy! I believe that you can't ever give up on people you love ever...and if they give up on you well you need to fight for them and show them your love. I am just really intense I feel to the extreme whatever I'm feeling and honestly I wouldn't have it anyother way. It keeps me in check. I'm broken but fixable. I don't have a need to be friends with everyone..I LOVE who is in my life..in fact I live by the quote "the only people you need in your life are the ones who need you in theirs" I don't need anyone who doesn't need me or doesn't feel like a piece of them is missing without me around. I have a creative mind, one that doesn't stop, sometimes it's my worst enemy. I love lyrics more than anything. I love to write, design, and make something from nothing. I am the sassiest bitch you know. I cuss like a sailor...I can spit the comebacks out like a champ so if you want to stick around you better be able to keep up! I am a really hardworker at everything from my job to relationships I believe you can have it ALL if you want it and work for it. A perfectionist with a mild case of OCD (obsessive compulsive disorder). Dancing is therapy for me. I don't cry alot and I think that's part of my problem. I love animals more than people. I have a soft spot for people who are in need, I feel like I always have to rescue them. I am a nurterer I like to take care of people that I love but I know what I need is someone to take care of me. I think arguing is extremely healthy in all relationships I am not the girl to keep my mouth shut, and I would never ever want someone I'm with to let me walk all over them, plus making up is the best..you should worry when you don't argue it means the love is gone. Mean, coniving people DISGUST me literally.. being mean on the inside makes you ugly on the outside...I hate when people don't like to see other people happy.My parents are my heroes I want exactly what they have,,,everything they've gone through in life has always been has a team, I think that's the key to a long lasting marriage. I am always always in it to win it! I can be a drama queen, whiny, high maintenance and god I will ask for the world from you but if you asked me to walk on water for you, I'd figure out a way to make it happen. Meaning you show me something real I will be the best thing to happen to you. Most of all I have no idea what's best for me I wing it everyday of my life, sometimes I wish I had a life coach. I fuck up constantly, I say things I shouldn't. I don't always show the people I love the most how much I really love them...but I'm a work in progress the people who really love me will always stand by me, cause they are the one's who really know who I am and believe in who I can be, no matter if I'm perfect or not. †

†It's hard for me to love and I'm impossible to love.†
†I love to write.†
†I am the happiest miserable person you've ever met....but isn't every creative person.†
†I chase my dreams not people.†
† My friends are the most important thing to me and I have a few really close ones..which I swear to god would knife any of you motherfuckers for, if you HURT any of them, no joke! :)†
† You mean everything to me.†
†I want to meet someone who can figure me out, you up for the challenge?†
†I am a dreamer and a believer†
†You think you know me? I assure you, you don't, I am far more complicated than you think†
†I don't need anyone to complete me I complete myself,I am NO ONE's possession.
†I have such a complicated mind it's a very love/hate relationship, it's in frequent wars with my heart has well.
†I believe everything in moderation is good but everything in excess is soooooo much funner†
†To any guy who's ever let me go all I have to say is you lose, game over..no second chances†
†I don't need you, you need me.†
† I always have faith in everything happens for a reason, otherwise I would have already killed myself I'm sure haha juussttt joking.†
†I never plan anything†
†but.... I have a general outline for everything†
†I have undiagnosed A.D.D. I swear I can't sit still for a minute†
†I hate boring..... boring anything, boring people, places, words, anything! I am doing 115 in a 30 mph zone.†
†I believe that TRUE LOVE conquers everything†
†I have a whole list of dreams that I will do and not just dream about†
†I've learned there aren't any fake people everyone is real you just need to meet the ones that value you enough to not be fake to you.†
†I have no REGRETS†
†I am always searching for more in life, I haven't decided if that's a good or bad thing†
†I do not and will never just SETTLE†
†I'm Adventrous and a free spirit,I'll do anything for a good laugh†
† I'm sooo obsessed with interesting people, people that intrigue me and people who basically say amazing things...things to make me think, I could talk about nothing for hours.†
†I am 24 going on 15†
†I always listen to my gut instinct, it's always right BUT then I always follow my heart†
†I live my life by quotes†
†I cannot live without music I need to listen to it so loud my ears are ringing for at least a hour after... at the very least†
†I'm waiting for EVERYTHING instead of just SOMETHING†
†I never say never†
†If I love you I will do ANYTHING for you, if I don't like you well you better watch the fuck out†
†I'm Random†
† Not only am I random...I'm weird the upbringing of being a only child I have a wild imagination. But I'm fun has hell.†
†I always surround myself with sarcastic, witty funny people if your hilarious you can be my best friend†
†I don't like holding onto things of "sentimental value" I feel like your living in the past wether you look at those things or not..I hold it all in my head and heart†
†I am like a 2 year old I pick up all sorts of words and phrases which I incorporate in my daily life and which make me talk like a 80's surfer/hoodrat/and valley girl all rolled up into one.†
†Someone told me once "you are one of those people that would take a lifetime to get to know" I loved it so much cause it sum's me up that is the most accurate way to describe me and my life, you simply may never have time.†
†There are lots of people you love in life I want to meet the one who INSPIRES me, then I'll know it's real†
“Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine, as children do. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It's not just in some of us, it's in everyone. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.”
Do not get caught up always know who you are and what kind of person you want to be stay true to yourself, it's all you have.

"Love all, trust a few, do wrong to none."- William Shakespeare

"I used to think life had a plan for me until i realized life had to be planned by me..."

Every asshole says they love someone...it doesn't matter, what matters is what you DO to the person you say you love."

"I will wash away your pain with all my tears And drown your fear"


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