i'll fade away for you my friend, both faithless and devoted. i'll fake plastic smile pretend, as if

altruism. morbid violence. music. art. writing. bad poetry. journalism. photography. photoshop CS. plug-ins. poetry. film. plays. painting. sculpting. dancing. destruction. world affairs. politics. news. suffering. deceit. beauty. stark reality. a needle in a haystack. pain. romanticism. fear and loathing. animosity. anonymity. lust. heart. laughing. the human condition. fashion. smiling. truth. freedom. justice. hurting. hope. taekwondo. kindness. helping. cats. animals. cheetahs. greed. revenge. sincerity. honesty. dishonesty. a meaningful existence.

I'd like to meet:

master shake. elvis. psychic sylvia brown.
the butcher, the baker, the candlestick maker.

the last lizard --from 'the last life in the universe'

'the lizard wakes up and finds he's the last lizard alive.
his family and friends are all gone.
those he didn't like.
those who picked on him in school,
are also gone.
the lizard is all alone.
he misses his family and friends.
even his enemies.
it's better to be with your enemies than being alone.
that's what he thought.
staring at the sunset he thinks:
"what is the point of living if i don't have anyone to talk to?"
but, even that thought doesn't mean anything
when you are the last lizard.'

Music:

MSTRKRFT, billie holiday, radiohead, wolfsheim, nine inch nails, joy division, marilyn manson, the egg, mickey avalon, smashing pumpkins, mr. bungle, the egg, elvis, nirvana, air, tupac, uffie, snoop, dr. dre, pixies, tom waits, a perfect circle, dust brothers, bjork, eminem, placebo, olivia newton-john, justice, coldplay, echo and the bunnymen, thompson twins, tool, fugees, ours, korn, mistress barbara, helmet, sade, jane's addiction, neptunes, fionna apple, lovage, she wants revenge, culture club, white stripes, michael jackson, yes, faith no more, peeping tom, the faint, sage francis, vnv nation, mike patton, matmos, fantomas, mr. uncertain, kill creek, billy holiday, the smiths, at the drive-in, n.e.r.d, portishead, 50 cent, the mars volta, dan the automator, tricky, massive attack, morcheeba, korn, a-ha, stone temple pilots, jamiroquai, apoptygma berzerk, mr. oizo, gorillaz, blur, folk implosion, front 242, the strokes, david bowie, depeche mode, frank black, blues, tricky, tomahawk, duran duran, dj danger mouse, sneaker pimps, sigur ros, death cab for cutie, eagles, tears for fears, simple minds

Movies:

sword of doom, titus, romeo is bleeding, last life in the universe, collateral, shark skin man and peach hip girl, ichi the killer, donnie darko, party 7, vulgar, drugstore cowboy, dead man, event horizon, bright future, hellraiser, nightbreed, lord of illusions, cemetary man, saw, repo man, edward scissorhands, amores perros, gojoe, minority report, scrooged, donnie brasco, selma's song, battle royale, vanilla sky, the secretary, assualt on precinct 13, the last samurai, gattaca, once upon a time in america, the rules of attraction, constantine, wallstreet, the game, american psycho, the fly, dark city, the omen, dawn of the dead, puppetmaster, scanners, something wicked this way comes, american psycho, the doom generation, saw, girl interrupted, invasion of the body snatchers, i spit on your grave, basketcase, he got game, mean streets, the bourne indentity, run ronnie run, gods and monsters, angel heart, belly, great expectations, less than zero, rushmore, the boondock saints, born on the 4th of july, benny and june, the big hit, predator, poltergeist, carrie, cure, one flew over the cuckoo's nest, children of the corn, audition, my bodyguard, silent night deadly night, bad santa, the devil's advocate, the dead zone, the river's edge, sid and nancy, the serpent and the rainbow, the matrix, bottle rocket, texas chainsaw massacre, shaun of the dead, buffalo '66, the big lebowski, the royal tenenbaums, better off dead, zero effect, the count of monte cristo, visitor q, crash, man on fire, chinatown, final destination, cujo, reality bites, the gift, existenz, the lost boys, bubba ho-tep, prayer for the rollerboys, kingpin, kill bill, romper stomper, exorcist, rosemary's baby, wimbledon, far and away, may, suicide club, five easy pieces, the color of money, rawhead rex, training day, the fifth element, death to smoochy, orgazmo, highway, the salton sea, scarface, pet cemetary, requiem for a dream, gangs of new york, naked lunch, the grifters, wonderland, 8MM, chopper, harold and maude, dogma, blow, killing zoe, party monster, platoon, fight club, seven, magnolia, the river's edge, pulp fiction, alien, aliens, say anything, the thin red line, stripes, where the buffalo roam, fear and loathing in las vegas, strange days, nightmare on elm street, ed wood, robocop, memento, trainspotting, one hour photo, heat, matchstick men, true romance, lord of war, revolver

Television:

carnivale, forensic files, the colbert report, project runway, curb your enthusiasm, family guy, chris rock, discovery channel, real time with bill maher, the apprentice, survivor, the norm show, southpark, ned and stacy, chappelle show, smallville, boomtown, dennis miller, six feet under, queer as folk, sopranos, oz, cowboy bebop, america's next top model, los angeles lakers, out of order, nip/tuck, reno 911, aqua teen hunger force, sealab 2021, venture brothers, harvey birdman

Books:

'american psycho' and 'the rules of attraction' by brett easton ellis...'the great shark hunt' and 'hell's angels' by hunter thompson, 'lost souls?' and 'saved' by poppy z. brite...'the great and secret show,' 'in the flesh' and 'incarnations' by clive barker, 'survivor' by chuck palahniuk, 'i am legend' by richard matheson, 'satan burger' by carlton mellick III, and frank miller comics...

Heroes:

favorite poem: 'in the desert i saw a creature, naked, bestial, Who, squatting upon the ground, held his heart in his hands, and ate of it. i said, "is it good, friend?" "it is bitter – bitter", he answered, "but I like it because it is bitter, and because it is my heart.' in the desert - stephen crane

favorite book quote: 'Big Brother isn't watching. He's singing and dancing. He's pulling rabbits out of a hat. Big Brother's busy holding your attention every moment you're awake. He's making sure you're always distracted. He's making sure you're fully absorbed. He's making sure your imagination withers. Until it's as useful as your appendix. He's making sure your attention is always filled. And this being fed, it's worse than being watched. With the world always filling you, no one has to worry about what's in your mind. With everyone's imagination atrophied, no one will ever be a threat to the world.' -chuck palahniuk

'my pain is constant and sharp and i do not hope for a better world for anyone. in fact i want my pain to be inflicted on others. i want no escape. but even after admitting this, there is no catharsis. i gain no deeper knowledge about myself; no new knowledge can be extracted from my telling. there has been no reason for me to tell you any of this. this confession has meant nothing...' -brett easton ellis

i'm a dumbass...

what's set in steel will bend with fire, malleably turn twisting- inspired

we only hurt the ones we love because to bleed ourselves would not be nearly as entertaining

laughing up fresh chunks of colorful gore, my pretty pale $2 dollar whore

or so it seems under thought-avalanche

...for when it's light away it takes creeping fox trots through mind mined road rage

a barely controlled yet volatile insanity

a dedication...

afterwo(a)rds...when there's no one left to hear you scream.

a state of perplexed adornment to an already tarnished mind, aka, mental basement continued...

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