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 Gabriel's Profile |
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The Dreamer Awakes |
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| Age: | 44 years old |
| Sex: | Female |
| Location: | London, |
| Country: |  United Kingdom |
| Zodiac: |  Sagittarius (Nov 22 - Dec 21) |
| Last Login: | Oct 9, 2008 (4 days back) |
| I am Here For Friends and Networking. | |
About Me |
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| I’m German but I lived in London for more than 20 years. If you can fall in love with a place, than for sure I did.
I run away from home. I had no choice. If I hadn’t, I would properly killed myself. My mothers boyfriend and my uncle tried to get into my pants. And I bloody hate them until the day I die. I started writing when I was a teenager and made up stories in my head long before this. An outlet for the pain and slowly emptiness that is dragging me down. Trying to tear me apart bit by bit. I lived too long in a limbo. Only half alive, like a zombie. Locked myself into an exile created by my own misery. And for a long time all I wanted was to crawl into a hole and never come out again. But when you are at your lowest, there is still a little stubborn spark left that won’t give up. I thought I lost it. For a long time I couldn’t write, I stopped day dreaming and my whole world was one big black hole. But than like in the film queen of the damned, music ignited this little spark. And slowly I’m trying to claw my way out of the morass of depression. But it is so hard to come back to life. For every step forward, I feel as if I get kicked back two steps. Resurrection. The transformation from a nobody into a somebody. To be a true artist you should have felt the pain of being? Have been part of suffering? And there has been plenty of pain in my life. But I’m not ready to give up just yet. That’s how I feel today Tomorrow who knows? My mind is an open book. |
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My Interests |
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| Love creating digital art, computers, reading, writing fictional stories and poetry, photography,tattoos I wake up with music and I fall asleep with music and can't live without it, | |
I'd like to meet:Jonathan Davis, Marquise de Sade, Bobby(You know who you are), H.R. Giger.. type="text/javascript" charset="utf-8" document·getElementById( 'no_js_div' ).style.display='none'; document·getElementById( 'js_div' ).style.display=''; .. |
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Music:Korn, Marilyn Manson, Velvet Revolver, Him, Deep Purple, Pink Floyd, Depeche Mode, The Cure, The The, Linkin Park, Toyah,Eurythmics, Yazoo, New Order, Nirvana, Tears for Fears,Radiohead,System of a Down, Cowboy junkies,PJ Harvey Soundtrack of Queen of the Damned, Evanescence Foo Fighters, Red Hot Chili Peppers |
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Movies:Queen of the Damned, Lost Boys, Stigmata, The Hills have Eyes, Fear Dot Com, Texas Chainsaw Massacre, Salo, The Witch, Lady Vengeance, The Hunger, Blue Velvet, The Matrix, Highlander, Don't Look Now, Men in Black, The Piano, Memoirs of a Geisha, Blade, Saw 1 + 2,Princess Mononoke,Resident Evil, Near Dark, anything with blood and gore. |
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Television:Miami Ink, Charmed, 24, Nip & Tuck, Programs about antiques and carbootsales, wildlife programs, cartoons, Angel, Gordon Ramsey F***Word, Bad Girls, CSI, Cold Case, Stargate SG-1, Prison Break, Kerrang Radio |
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Books:Anne Rice (Love the sleeping beauty series) Brian Lumley Eric van Lustbaderfound this fantasy layout at HOT FreeLayouts.com :: MyHotComments |
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Heroes:We are all heroes, just trying to stay alive |
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My Background and Lifestyle |
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| MaritalStatus: | Single |
| Ethnicity: | White / Caucasian |
| SexualOrientation: | Straight |
| Religion: | Other |
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My Blog |
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hard to being alive |
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| It is so hard to being alive
So hard to being alone
So hard to fight yourself
So hard to be, who you want to be
When the pain of your past, is eating you alive... Posted by Gabriel on Sun, 04 May 2008 07:38:00 PST |
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Love me for who i am |
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| LOVE ME FOR WHO I'M
NOT FOR WHAT YOU THINK I'M
LOVE ME WHEN I'M DOWN
AND DON'T EVEN LOVE MYSELF
LOVE ME EVEN IF I HURT YOU
BECAUSE I NEVER MEANT TO
LOVE ME WHEN THE TEARS
TRICKLE DOWN MY FACE
AND KISS... Posted by Gabriel on Wed, 12 Sep 2007 09:34:00 PST |
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Loneliness Part 4 (Adults only) |
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| Loneliness 4
His hot powerful hands glide over her body. His lips sucking her neck, biting her slightly.
Oh god what pleasure.
She pulls away from him, grabs his T-shirt and rips it apart.
Her juic... Posted by Gabriel on Tue, 21 Aug 2007 03:06:00 PST |
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Dedicated to Raven X |
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| ALWAYS BE TRUE
TO YOURSELF
LOVERS COME
LOVERS GO
BUT THE ONLY THING
THAT IS IMPORTANT
IS
YOU... Posted by Gabriel on Sun, 19 Aug 2007 02:07:00 PST |
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NIGHTMARE ON CHRISTMAS AND A NEW YEAR RESOLUTION |
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| NIGHTMARE ON CHRISTMAS AND A NEW YEAR RESOLUTION
I guess to understand the whole story, I have to start at the beginning.
I have been unemployed for quiet some time now and my financial situation is... Posted by Gabriel on Sat, 06 Jan 2007 10:43:00 PST |
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Loneliness part 3 (Adults only) |
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| I guess I'm a little slow of posting anything. But I hope I make it up with quality.
Something else as well. I did some artwork with a pic of my friend nick, that I posted in my picture folder.
... Posted by Gabriel on Sat, 16 Dec 2006 10:31:00 PST |
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Update of profile |
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| I thought my profile needed to be updated. I was very short on it. at the time, I just didn't know what to write. I'm lying, In my heart I knew what to write. I just couldn't get it out. and I ho... Posted by Gabriel on Tue, 05 Dec 2006 11:45:00 PST |
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The bitch is finally out |
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| I just want to say
to the asshole
who is trying to hack into my profile
FUCK OFF
OR I PUT A CURSE ON YOU
And everybody else
I love you all
And just be patient with me
THE BITCH IS FINALLY OUT
... Posted by Gabriel on Mon, 27 Nov 2006 11:24:00 PST |
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Loneliness 2 (Adults only) |
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| Sorry that I have neglected everybody for a short time. But I have a part-time job on the weekend and I have to study for my course and plan my website. And on top of it, I always get t... Posted by Gabriel on Mon, 20 Nov 2006 11:20:00 PST |
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Between lust and desire |
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| BETWEEN LUST AND DESIRE
BETWEEN PASSION AND PAIN
BETWEEN LOVE AND HATE
THERE ARE NO BOUNDARIES
THERE IS NO GAIN
BETWEEN MADNESS AND SANITY
BETWEEN REALITY AND DREAMS
THERE ARE NO ILLUSIONS
THERE IS O... Posted by Gabriel on Fri, 10 Nov 2006 03:15:00 PST |
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My Friends |
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Jonathan, Dark Adapted Eye, Alyssa, jenny, Dragon, Korn, Muppet, Raven X, LoRRaiNe, Empathetic Designs (Happy Weening), Lady Lilith *AWAY*, S.M.E, Stephen, Ky S. Kristion, Teddy, Silent Q Design, SIN-JIN SMYTH, Rjae !Sognatore!, LYSA LUNA, THE ROCK ATTIC @ BEDFORD PARK - LONDON, ~I wOUld Do AnYthIng 4 U & U jUst dOnt sEE It~, Jesus Got His Gun, Tom, CJ West, david apps photography & designs, GLUBDUB.COM - and Radio Earwax, jondavis-pictures
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